Darkest Moments

Do you really want to know what it's like?

It's like swimming in the vast lake in the dark.

Struggling to reach the shore while paddling

But the shadows hide where you are. 

There's a loneliness there that hits bone-deep

But you can't break it no matter what you do.

All those negative thoughts whisper around you

Convincing you that no one cares about you.

Always annoying, too sensitive, too much

Every insult whispers through your mind.

Always struggling to remain above water

But the night gets thicker making you blind.

And even when you reach that sandy shore

You fall down gasping to your knees.  

You think that's it, that's all you have to do

But then, your muscles clench and your knees bleed.

You realize you're still alone in the dark

Shivering so hard your teeth could shatter and break.

Then, glance back with your heart in your throat

Realizing you have to survive more than the lake.

Because in front of you there are shadows 

That cloak your every thought and mind.

Even with the impending day you are on alert

Hoping for once your brain will be kind.

But then, it's sudden you can take a deep breath.

You can see the clouds turning because of the rising sun.

The darkest moment is over for now

You can be relieved that you survived this one.